Enjoyed that, did you? Well somehow I've reached the personification of that song, and honestly I not only don't know how, but am not all together sure why its so glamorous. I never realized that girls look up to women like me, but I've been told by other women my age that not only do they envy me, but their teenage girls want to be just like me when they grow up. Seriously? No, that's actually what they say. "I want to be like Lisa when I'm older. Working two jobs, having my own place, and not having to rely on a stupid man for support. She doesn't have kids, and can do whatever she wants."
All right. I guess from an outside birdseye view that's all good, though not even close to what I wanted when I was a teeenager. Not exactly what I want now either, but I guess its where I'm at.
Its true that I've always been a bit of a loner. I could go into hashing it out, but its mainly just my personality - INFP if you're familiar with Meyers-Briggs. I like to do my own thing, be in my own head, not have a lot of high energy in my personal space. So I pay to have my own apartment. I don't need to have a man (though it would be nice) I don't need to have friends around at all times, or need to live with someone. There are so many women out there in bad relationships b/c they can't bear to be alone, or live unsupported. Well, I've never much taken to low self-esteem, so being on my own isn't something I dread.. but there are some downsides to all of this.
The dark, miserable side of being an Independent Woman:
I pay for all my own stuff, yes - BUT I also work two jobs so I can. Not a lot of free time for this girl. My personal life is far from glamorous.
I don't take whatever man comes along who is interested in me - BUT that leaves a lot of lonely nights & frustration without someone to compliment my personality.
I can go out when I want to - BUT I don't necessarily have friends to go with. Since I decided to be restless & rebellious when I was younger instead of settling down like most normal, intelligent people I'm used to, I tend to be at a loss for those of my kind. Most others like me are okay with doing their own thing, or staying in their own little comfortable clique. So I either don't go out, end up alone, or go out with less desirable acquaintances that either ruin the night or get us into trouble.
So, there you have it. I guess I don't really know what else to say on this issue, b/c honestly, I really wanted to be a secret agent like Charlie's Angels, so this is all a bit of a let down to me.
But HEY! I'm not in a controlling relationship, I pay my own bills, & that car I drive?.... I BOUGHT IT. Okay, that does feel nice to say.
