-"How nothing feels so much like a language nothing ever gets finished, like i ninety-foreign highways and cities, listening to silence, where all the useless songs in america are haunting me, so in the long thigh of the late sunlight, i come back from the years."-
The Promise Ring
(album insert)
Monday, June 17, 2013
Friday, April 19, 2013
Your Ignorance is Showing
Maybe I love history more than others, maybe I have a different view of life and death than most people. Whatever the case, one of my biggest pet peeves is over-reaction to tragedy in the world today. Few things annoy me more than when someone says, "All of the terrible things happening in the world today. It seems to just get worse and worse, like anything can happen." REALLY? Now I've dealt with this exact sentiment so many times in the past few years, that I've come up with a solid argument against this kind of ignorance - and that's all it is, ignorance. Ignorance for the entire history of humankind, as well as the planet earth. If you can't take the circle of life into perspective, you are nothing but an ignorant fool.
First of all, all the terrible things happening in the world today? Really? I could easily point out examples in the last 50 years, but it seems like maybe that's "too recent" and could be included in this "worsening epidemic of evil." Lets go with the last 100 years. Anyone remember a couple little things called WWI and WWII? No? Doesn't ring a bell? Well, 16 million and 60 million people were killed in each, respectively, so I figured it wouldn't be something easily forgotten. How about the attempted genocide of the Jewish race in which a madman convinced an entire army to murder 6 million innocent people, or 2/3 of all Jews in Europe? What about the atomic bomb that literally flattened the cities of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, and killed around 200,000 Japanese civilians? Have you just pushed that to the back of your mind like a piece of fiction you once read? We have wars now, but nothing compares to what went on nearly a hundred years ago, as well as long before. The American Civil war was little over 150 years ago, and killed over 400,000 people in 4 years. This was fought over the threat of secession due to the American slave trade - a incredibly evil phenomenon in which an estimated 12 million Africans were kidnapped from their home, shipped like rats, sold like work animals, and treated even worse in the fields. Is that another piece of fiction you've stored in your brain? How about the Medieval period in Europe when royalty seemed to be on a routine rotation due to the ruling party being at constant war with their enemies, & more often than not, were murdered by such. Meanwhile, the common people lived in the kind of squalor & disease we can't even imagine. You think its hard to find hope now? Try living in a insect/rat infested hut with mud floors & a straw roof, where you take a filthy bath once a year, and eat stew that's been in the same pot for over a week. Oh, and you're probably in insurmountable debt and work land that belongs to someone else. Think you're not going anywhere in life, now?
Lately I've heard the argument, "well, they didn't have the scary technology back then that we do now." Oh yeah? Maybe you haven't read a lot about the history of torture, but I would rather be killed by our technology today than by any kind of primitive or evolving automatic weapon used any time before say, 1950. Gatling guns, cannons, swords, mace & axe, mustard gas, agent orange. Not to mention all the execution devices that have been outlawed as "cruel and unusual:" The guillotine, impalement, drawn & quartering, DISEMBOWELMENT. Geez. I would much rather go by the more precise methods of today. If anything, I'd say we've improved on our evil ways. Of course, right there someone could say, "innocent kids are being killed, terrorists are targeting tourists and innocent civilians, no one is safe anymore." You think we were ever SAFE? Again, if anything, I'd say we're more protected then ever. War is much less of a common thing than it was in the past, and when there is one, it is much less deadly. It has to be, because every country in the world knows that if anything gets pushed too far, there are weapons that could obliterate human kind.. and I'm pretty sure that even the crazy terrorist madmen wouldn't want that. So yes, innocent children were shot. I won't try to downplay that tragedy, but I will say that there are terrible things like child slavery, child soldiers, etc. still prevalent in highly populated areas of our world. So while we can ask (we have to ask out of bewilderment) why anyone would shoot up a school of innocent children, you cannot tell me that this is an evil that has just begun to emerge and has never been so bad. That in itself is ignorance to the natural evil around us.
Another thing I cannot stand is when a person takes natural disasters or illness reports, and tries to say it has never been so bad. REALLY? First of all, go look up "extinction events." Granted, there has not been one since the beginning of humanity, as obviously we would be exterminated, but it still shows that the world has been destroyed at least 5 times, if not several more. There have been meteorites, there have been massive volcano eruptions. Every year thousands are killed by tsunamis, earthquakes, tornadoes, etc. There were almost 900 students killed during the 2008 earthquake in China, in one location, alone. 900 STUDENTS. Can the American public even fathom that idea? Its an image I certainly haven't been able to get out of my mind in the last 5 years. So when a co-worker tells me she doesn't know what's going on in the world today b/c there was an overly active tornado season, or an earthquake in NY, I just shake my head. We live on a living planet. Mother Nature is a dangerous, deadly force. It just shows our ignorance created by our advanced civilization to think we cannot be harmed.
So what is the problem? Well, as I've said all along, ignorance plays into it quite a bit. How many student really pay attention in school to history lessons, and when they do, is it relevant enough to our society today that they even blink at the horrors of mankind? One thing I've heard from more than one teacher recently is that The Diary of Anne Frank isn't even relevant to their students anymore. Its not RELEVANT! Think about that, America. Our kids are reading a first-hand account written by a girl their age who was forced to go into hiding from horrible men who would like to see her entire innocent family killed, and after 2 years they are discovered & taken to hard-labor, disease-infested concentration camps where all but one eventually dies. That's not relevant to our kids today. To them it may seem more like a work of fiction, written to try and scare some sense into them. It just doesn't apply to their middle-class suburban lifestyles. Its a boring version of the video game they played last night. Perhaps schools need to begin having actual holocaust victims in to talk to these students. Perhaps we need actual Ugandan refugees to come share their stories. Would that make it more relevant, you snots?
You see, America is so far separated from global life that the everyday citizen doesn't seem to know a lot about the actual evil going on in our world. They don't hear about the absolutely horrifying civil wars in Africa anymore. They don't hear much of the archaic social systems in some countries of the Middle East. They don't know that until the 1980's, Aboriginal Australians weren't even considered to be part of the country's population. What we hear & see is what pertains to us. Is it going to affect America in some way? Yes? Well, if we have a stake over there, its suddenly important. How important was Myanmar to America? Sure plenty of people were concerned with the injustice of the riots, but was it even close to being a majority of our population? Was our media pushing images and new stories? If it was, I sure didn't see it. We hear about North Korea because it is a threat to humankind with their absurd ideas about nuclear weapons & world domination. We heard about the extremely juvenile riots in the UK because they are our civilized brethren. So maybe that's what it comes down to. We are only shocked by the evil in civilized countries, as if we've built ourselves up to the point that we are unable to be breached. We've callused ourselves to the point that we have forgotten evil is innate. It is not a way of race or religion. Whether it be in a 3rd world country where people only have crude ways to fight, or in a 1st world country where people can use advanced technology, there is always an evil presence. Utopia does not exist. Utopia cannot exist because of human nature. Mental health cannot be completely controlled because the minds of sociopaths work to deceive. We are constantly looking for answers to control the next tragedy, and all I can say is that it is not possible. As long as we're convincing the American public that we have everything under control, any tragedy that befalls us will create shock & hysteria. I say we teach to be kind, to problem solve, to always be aware. Always be ready for the next event, be ready to stand up & help, be ready to run. The next time could be right out your back door.
First of all, all the terrible things happening in the world today? Really? I could easily point out examples in the last 50 years, but it seems like maybe that's "too recent" and could be included in this "worsening epidemic of evil." Lets go with the last 100 years. Anyone remember a couple little things called WWI and WWII? No? Doesn't ring a bell? Well, 16 million and 60 million people were killed in each, respectively, so I figured it wouldn't be something easily forgotten. How about the attempted genocide of the Jewish race in which a madman convinced an entire army to murder 6 million innocent people, or 2/3 of all Jews in Europe? What about the atomic bomb that literally flattened the cities of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, and killed around 200,000 Japanese civilians? Have you just pushed that to the back of your mind like a piece of fiction you once read? We have wars now, but nothing compares to what went on nearly a hundred years ago, as well as long before. The American Civil war was little over 150 years ago, and killed over 400,000 people in 4 years. This was fought over the threat of secession due to the American slave trade - a incredibly evil phenomenon in which an estimated 12 million Africans were kidnapped from their home, shipped like rats, sold like work animals, and treated even worse in the fields. Is that another piece of fiction you've stored in your brain? How about the Medieval period in Europe when royalty seemed to be on a routine rotation due to the ruling party being at constant war with their enemies, & more often than not, were murdered by such. Meanwhile, the common people lived in the kind of squalor & disease we can't even imagine. You think its hard to find hope now? Try living in a insect/rat infested hut with mud floors & a straw roof, where you take a filthy bath once a year, and eat stew that's been in the same pot for over a week. Oh, and you're probably in insurmountable debt and work land that belongs to someone else. Think you're not going anywhere in life, now?
Lately I've heard the argument, "well, they didn't have the scary technology back then that we do now." Oh yeah? Maybe you haven't read a lot about the history of torture, but I would rather be killed by our technology today than by any kind of primitive or evolving automatic weapon used any time before say, 1950. Gatling guns, cannons, swords, mace & axe, mustard gas, agent orange. Not to mention all the execution devices that have been outlawed as "cruel and unusual:" The guillotine, impalement, drawn & quartering, DISEMBOWELMENT. Geez. I would much rather go by the more precise methods of today. If anything, I'd say we've improved on our evil ways. Of course, right there someone could say, "innocent kids are being killed, terrorists are targeting tourists and innocent civilians, no one is safe anymore." You think we were ever SAFE? Again, if anything, I'd say we're more protected then ever. War is much less of a common thing than it was in the past, and when there is one, it is much less deadly. It has to be, because every country in the world knows that if anything gets pushed too far, there are weapons that could obliterate human kind.. and I'm pretty sure that even the crazy terrorist madmen wouldn't want that. So yes, innocent children were shot. I won't try to downplay that tragedy, but I will say that there are terrible things like child slavery, child soldiers, etc. still prevalent in highly populated areas of our world. So while we can ask (we have to ask out of bewilderment) why anyone would shoot up a school of innocent children, you cannot tell me that this is an evil that has just begun to emerge and has never been so bad. That in itself is ignorance to the natural evil around us.
Another thing I cannot stand is when a person takes natural disasters or illness reports, and tries to say it has never been so bad. REALLY? First of all, go look up "extinction events." Granted, there has not been one since the beginning of humanity, as obviously we would be exterminated, but it still shows that the world has been destroyed at least 5 times, if not several more. There have been meteorites, there have been massive volcano eruptions. Every year thousands are killed by tsunamis, earthquakes, tornadoes, etc. There were almost 900 students killed during the 2008 earthquake in China, in one location, alone. 900 STUDENTS. Can the American public even fathom that idea? Its an image I certainly haven't been able to get out of my mind in the last 5 years. So when a co-worker tells me she doesn't know what's going on in the world today b/c there was an overly active tornado season, or an earthquake in NY, I just shake my head. We live on a living planet. Mother Nature is a dangerous, deadly force. It just shows our ignorance created by our advanced civilization to think we cannot be harmed.
So what is the problem? Well, as I've said all along, ignorance plays into it quite a bit. How many student really pay attention in school to history lessons, and when they do, is it relevant enough to our society today that they even blink at the horrors of mankind? One thing I've heard from more than one teacher recently is that The Diary of Anne Frank isn't even relevant to their students anymore. Its not RELEVANT! Think about that, America. Our kids are reading a first-hand account written by a girl their age who was forced to go into hiding from horrible men who would like to see her entire innocent family killed, and after 2 years they are discovered & taken to hard-labor, disease-infested concentration camps where all but one eventually dies. That's not relevant to our kids today. To them it may seem more like a work of fiction, written to try and scare some sense into them. It just doesn't apply to their middle-class suburban lifestyles. Its a boring version of the video game they played last night. Perhaps schools need to begin having actual holocaust victims in to talk to these students. Perhaps we need actual Ugandan refugees to come share their stories. Would that make it more relevant, you snots?
You see, America is so far separated from global life that the everyday citizen doesn't seem to know a lot about the actual evil going on in our world. They don't hear about the absolutely horrifying civil wars in Africa anymore. They don't hear much of the archaic social systems in some countries of the Middle East. They don't know that until the 1980's, Aboriginal Australians weren't even considered to be part of the country's population. What we hear & see is what pertains to us. Is it going to affect America in some way? Yes? Well, if we have a stake over there, its suddenly important. How important was Myanmar to America? Sure plenty of people were concerned with the injustice of the riots, but was it even close to being a majority of our population? Was our media pushing images and new stories? If it was, I sure didn't see it. We hear about North Korea because it is a threat to humankind with their absurd ideas about nuclear weapons & world domination. We heard about the extremely juvenile riots in the UK because they are our civilized brethren. So maybe that's what it comes down to. We are only shocked by the evil in civilized countries, as if we've built ourselves up to the point that we are unable to be breached. We've callused ourselves to the point that we have forgotten evil is innate. It is not a way of race or religion. Whether it be in a 3rd world country where people only have crude ways to fight, or in a 1st world country where people can use advanced technology, there is always an evil presence. Utopia does not exist. Utopia cannot exist because of human nature. Mental health cannot be completely controlled because the minds of sociopaths work to deceive. We are constantly looking for answers to control the next tragedy, and all I can say is that it is not possible. As long as we're convincing the American public that we have everything under control, any tragedy that befalls us will create shock & hysteria. I say we teach to be kind, to problem solve, to always be aware. Always be ready for the next event, be ready to stand up & help, be ready to run. The next time could be right out your back door.
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Fight for a Decent Life
I like to consider myself a survivalist. I've been through a lot of pain in my life, a few times down the rabbit hole, a couple times at the bottom of the hole. But when it comes down to it, I learned a long time ago that there's really nothing to do but keep moving on. I've never believed suicide to be the easy way out (though I understand how some can get so mixed up, they can't tell up from down, and become absorbed in their affliction) I value the experience and precious moments of life too dearly to have ever considered it a realistic option. Some of my friends may have regretted this statement in the past, but my motto has always been: "bad experience is still experience." Its about the stories - about being in that moment in time - because in the story of life, you want to find out how the main character survives, how they cope, what they think & feel, despite any hell they've been through.
Most people are shocked to find out I have fibromyalgia. I don't outwardly fit the profile of all those people who dote on their diagnosis like its a life sentence - a diagnosis that is often not even correct. Physically, anatomically, I am a classic textbook case. You wouldn't know it though, b/c I approach things with a natural, investigative, and die-hard spirit. This is a syndrome that you have to fight, or you will fall down & waste away.
After many years of doing my own research to get to the bottom of this "mystery disorder," I finally asked a trusted chiropractor who believed in a non-invasive wholistic approach to healing. He told me, in basic terms, that something happens in the health history of a fibromyalgia patien which short-circuits certain pain neurotransmitters in the body. Well, luck me, I was just the wild, free-running girl to have suffered two injuries that marked significant points in my progression. The first incident occurred during a break at catechism class one night in my early teens, in which I climbed up a tree to retrieve a football. In the dark, I stepped on a dead branch, and promptly fell 12 feet like a stone. I was knocked unconscious for about 15min, and woke up with a brief spell of amnesia. (Of course, back then concussions weren't considered serious unless they put you in the hospital. Though I still have a slight scar on the frontal lobe of my brain, according to an MRI from 2010.) The second incident occured several years later during my first year of college, I was walking to class & hit a patch of ice, which literally swept my legs out from under me, landing me directly on my tailbone. I visited the local chiropractor who said my x-rays showed my lumbar spine had been compacted like mangled railroad tracks. He used traction & stretches to adjust them back into place, but its been the root of a lot of my pain since. After that, I began to notice odd little things. my calves would ache from walking up a flight of stairs. I would exercise, and my muscles would become so tight that I'd try to do yoga to stretch them out. They'd only get worse. I eventually ended up wearing a knee brace b/c my hamstrings, quads, and IT band were so tight I was having difficultly walking. I went to a family sports medicine doctor/chiropractor that next summer who marveled that my muscles just wouldn't release. Yeah, marvelous. It was literally a pain in the ass. I felt like I had lead running through my blood. My outlook on life was rather bleak during that time. I was lovelorn, in deep pain, and going nowhere in life. The summer heat was torturous. The bitter winter cold made my joints feel like broken hinges. It took a couple specialists, a few experiments with prescriptions, and quite a bit of time to figure out how I could personally deal with my issues the best. Most people will agree that the college years are confusing enough for an individual. Well, 2002 was my year from hell. However, as much struggle I went through with some of those closest to me, I can honestly say now that I am lucky enough to have an amazingly supportive set of parents.
I first started looking at natural methods of pain relief when I was in my early teens. I made sure to understand the importance of proper exercise technique to strengthen supporting muscles, and not strain my back. I started looking into yoga & pilates, and even using some basic energy techniques to help my headaches. I hear a lot of massage therapy students saying they "thought it might be fun" to do massage. Well, I got into massage therapy, b/c my entire body hurt all of the time, and I wanted to use my own experience to help others. That being said, I do get my occasional fibromyalgia patient, and yes, they are SHOCKED when I tell them I've had it for a little more than 10 years. How am I so active, so in shape, so kept together? Its not easy, but its something I've worked hard to live with. You see, when you have a chronic condition, especially when you have so much life ahead of you, you absolutely have to find a way to keep yourself going, and a lot of that involves maintaining your own health.
Most clients I see who claim to have fibromyalgia are doing all the wrong things. A good deal don't even understand what it is, and have just been labeled as having it b/c their doctor hears they're in pain, & jump to that diagnosis. They complain that they can't get out of bed. They're tired all the time. How can they possibly exercise if they're in so much pain? Well, first of all, you absolutely must get out of bed and do something active. It doesn't have to be aggressive, and honestly, agressive exercise is probably not the best idea. Pilates is a great way to tone muscles, stretch your sore joints, and basically get your body moving without stressing it out. You also absolutely have to drink water. A lot of fibromyalgia patients say they don't like water. Well, any simple person is going to have pain if they're dehydrated all the time, lay in bed all day, and don't get the right nutrients. You've really got to keep on top of it. Yes, I am on a daily NSAID, Cymbalta, and iron supplements, but I feel its important to find the most effective combination involving the least amount of prescriptions. You start taking 5 or more, and you become chemically saturated. Things start interacting, and adding more isn't going to help anything - but it will probably hurt your cause with all the side effects. Another major must is a good nutrient supplement. I take a vitamin powder called Reliv, so I can absorb all the vitamin-ey goodness. Vegetables, protein, these are all no-brainer nutrition items. I will be the first to say I'm terrible at keeping up on that last one, but I can really tell a difference when I do.
So yes, when it comes down to it, I'm not a specialist. I'm not a nutritionist. I'm only a massage therapist who has battled this thing for years. I get tired more easily than some, I sleep more, I have flares when I might be in more pain than usual. I'm a bit more sensitive to overloads of noise & chaos, & sometimes extreme temperatures throw me off, and I feel like my mind goes blank more than it should, but I deal with it - b/c I'm only 31 years old, and I feel like I've always been a fighter. In the end, You do what you have to do to live life the best you can.
Most people are shocked to find out I have fibromyalgia. I don't outwardly fit the profile of all those people who dote on their diagnosis like its a life sentence - a diagnosis that is often not even correct. Physically, anatomically, I am a classic textbook case. You wouldn't know it though, b/c I approach things with a natural, investigative, and die-hard spirit. This is a syndrome that you have to fight, or you will fall down & waste away.
After many years of doing my own research to get to the bottom of this "mystery disorder," I finally asked a trusted chiropractor who believed in a non-invasive wholistic approach to healing. He told me, in basic terms, that something happens in the health history of a fibromyalgia patien which short-circuits certain pain neurotransmitters in the body. Well, luck me, I was just the wild, free-running girl to have suffered two injuries that marked significant points in my progression. The first incident occurred during a break at catechism class one night in my early teens, in which I climbed up a tree to retrieve a football. In the dark, I stepped on a dead branch, and promptly fell 12 feet like a stone. I was knocked unconscious for about 15min, and woke up with a brief spell of amnesia. (Of course, back then concussions weren't considered serious unless they put you in the hospital. Though I still have a slight scar on the frontal lobe of my brain, according to an MRI from 2010.) The second incident occured several years later during my first year of college, I was walking to class & hit a patch of ice, which literally swept my legs out from under me, landing me directly on my tailbone. I visited the local chiropractor who said my x-rays showed my lumbar spine had been compacted like mangled railroad tracks. He used traction & stretches to adjust them back into place, but its been the root of a lot of my pain since. After that, I began to notice odd little things. my calves would ache from walking up a flight of stairs. I would exercise, and my muscles would become so tight that I'd try to do yoga to stretch them out. They'd only get worse. I eventually ended up wearing a knee brace b/c my hamstrings, quads, and IT band were so tight I was having difficultly walking. I went to a family sports medicine doctor/chiropractor that next summer who marveled that my muscles just wouldn't release. Yeah, marvelous. It was literally a pain in the ass. I felt like I had lead running through my blood. My outlook on life was rather bleak during that time. I was lovelorn, in deep pain, and going nowhere in life. The summer heat was torturous. The bitter winter cold made my joints feel like broken hinges. It took a couple specialists, a few experiments with prescriptions, and quite a bit of time to figure out how I could personally deal with my issues the best. Most people will agree that the college years are confusing enough for an individual. Well, 2002 was my year from hell. However, as much struggle I went through with some of those closest to me, I can honestly say now that I am lucky enough to have an amazingly supportive set of parents.
I first started looking at natural methods of pain relief when I was in my early teens. I made sure to understand the importance of proper exercise technique to strengthen supporting muscles, and not strain my back. I started looking into yoga & pilates, and even using some basic energy techniques to help my headaches. I hear a lot of massage therapy students saying they "thought it might be fun" to do massage. Well, I got into massage therapy, b/c my entire body hurt all of the time, and I wanted to use my own experience to help others. That being said, I do get my occasional fibromyalgia patient, and yes, they are SHOCKED when I tell them I've had it for a little more than 10 years. How am I so active, so in shape, so kept together? Its not easy, but its something I've worked hard to live with. You see, when you have a chronic condition, especially when you have so much life ahead of you, you absolutely have to find a way to keep yourself going, and a lot of that involves maintaining your own health.
Most clients I see who claim to have fibromyalgia are doing all the wrong things. A good deal don't even understand what it is, and have just been labeled as having it b/c their doctor hears they're in pain, & jump to that diagnosis. They complain that they can't get out of bed. They're tired all the time. How can they possibly exercise if they're in so much pain? Well, first of all, you absolutely must get out of bed and do something active. It doesn't have to be aggressive, and honestly, agressive exercise is probably not the best idea. Pilates is a great way to tone muscles, stretch your sore joints, and basically get your body moving without stressing it out. You also absolutely have to drink water. A lot of fibromyalgia patients say they don't like water. Well, any simple person is going to have pain if they're dehydrated all the time, lay in bed all day, and don't get the right nutrients. You've really got to keep on top of it. Yes, I am on a daily NSAID, Cymbalta, and iron supplements, but I feel its important to find the most effective combination involving the least amount of prescriptions. You start taking 5 or more, and you become chemically saturated. Things start interacting, and adding more isn't going to help anything - but it will probably hurt your cause with all the side effects. Another major must is a good nutrient supplement. I take a vitamin powder called Reliv, so I can absorb all the vitamin-ey goodness. Vegetables, protein, these are all no-brainer nutrition items. I will be the first to say I'm terrible at keeping up on that last one, but I can really tell a difference when I do.
So yes, when it comes down to it, I'm not a specialist. I'm not a nutritionist. I'm only a massage therapist who has battled this thing for years. I get tired more easily than some, I sleep more, I have flares when I might be in more pain than usual. I'm a bit more sensitive to overloads of noise & chaos, & sometimes extreme temperatures throw me off, and I feel like my mind goes blank more than it should, but I deal with it - b/c I'm only 31 years old, and I feel like I've always been a fighter. In the end, You do what you have to do to live life the best you can.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Random Memoir
One of the most distinct ways I remember my mom as she was when I was younger is her sitting in the front passenger seat of our car as my dad drove us down the highway, her bare feet resting on the dash as she sang along with the rock 'n roll "oldies" she grew up with. She always seemed so free & happy, her head luxuriously resting back on the seat, sunglasses hiding her eyes, as she lounged in the sun & drank in the breeze from the open windows.
There were also several nights when I would run to hug her after they had been out at some benefit, concert, dinner, etc. I should have been in bed, but I was never one to follow the rules. I remember being engulfed in her camel hair dress coat, soaked in the delicious scent of the cold night air & Tresor. I remember that sweet, warm aroma, alive with the sharp chill. We children were spoiled to have her home with us so much. We didn't much like her going out for occasions, and leaving us behind.
There were also several nights when I would run to hug her after they had been out at some benefit, concert, dinner, etc. I should have been in bed, but I was never one to follow the rules. I remember being engulfed in her camel hair dress coat, soaked in the delicious scent of the cold night air & Tresor. I remember that sweet, warm aroma, alive with the sharp chill. We children were spoiled to have her home with us so much. We didn't much like her going out for occasions, and leaving us behind.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Reservations
There was a time when this song just killed me. What am I saying? It still tears me apart.
Wilco - Reservations
Wilco - Reservations
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Fun Pop Smarshmellow
You may see this as an odd combination. You may see a few guilty pleasures that maybe you think are out of place. You'll be suprised how well this works. Great driving music!
Ting Tings - Not My Name
Rhianna - Don't Stop the Music
ZZ Top - La Grange
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Black Tongue
Kings of Leon - Holy Roller Novocaine
Spoon - Back to the Life
The Strokes - Juicebox
Rebel Yell - Billy Idol
Goldfrapp - Strict Machine
Britney Spear - Toxic
Jennifer Lopez - Get Right (ft. Fab)
Lily Allen - Smile
Beyonce - Crazy in Love
The Fratellis - Flathead
Beck - Black Tamborine
Phantom Planet - Big Brat
The Pixies - Tame
Ting Tings - Not My Name
Rhianna - Don't Stop the Music
ZZ Top - La Grange
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Black Tongue
Kings of Leon - Holy Roller Novocaine
Spoon - Back to the Life
The Strokes - Juicebox
Rebel Yell - Billy Idol
Goldfrapp - Strict Machine
Britney Spear - Toxic
Jennifer Lopez - Get Right (ft. Fab)
Lily Allen - Smile
Beyonce - Crazy in Love
The Fratellis - Flathead
Beck - Black Tamborine
Phantom Planet - Big Brat
The Pixies - Tame
Friday, February 15, 2013
Beneath, Within
"Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God." - Aeschylus
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